Your first day in service...

You cried the entire time.

Two days later, you are still crying.

I am ready to cry.

A visit to Dr. Vu

Getting ready to go to Dr. Vu, my love.


It was just you and I today, here's the long stroll to his office.

We made it!
We paid the co-pay and now we wait to see him.


Here is the hard table they lay you on. They certainly do not make it for comfort!


Here he is checking out your foot, you were so calm!


Now you're pissed off, you have your cast back on. I don't blame you baby.

We go back next Friday at 11:30, then you and I will go get a burger at the Magic Mushroom Burger Shop.

I love you.

Mommy

Tears and kisses

Last night, I was awake a few times to feed you (big surprise, huh?)....I am still in awe of you little one...and I thought of all the sad days, weeks and months when you were in my tummy....not a wasted pregnancy, just a lot of concern and thoughts of, "why me", "why my daughter".

I cried thousands of tears while you were protected in me.

Then I met you.

I promise to make it up with millions of kisses...


I only have a dozen kisses left until I meet that goal.


Peace,


Mommy

Thanks Tina for the bunny!

Stretch it out Gillian

She may never get the chance to wear these shoes.

Swollen foot, stretching out your leg now that the cast is off.

Checked your toes as I do everyday.

I realized your toes looked extra fat, SUPER fat.

Showed your daddy.

Called Orthopedic Dr.

Dr. said remove the cast.

Cast is off of you until Thursday.

Don't get your hopes up too high sweet G, you get another one in 48 hours.

I love you.

Mommy

A month later

Asleep....

Trying to suck on her arm...

I gave her a new hair-do after her bath.

My sweet girl, today you are 4 weeks and 2 days old. You are asleep on the leather couch right now, mostly because I wanted to put you in a room where it wasn't so hot. Our A/C broke and sadly in Arizona, even in January, you need A/C. G, you are in REM right now, hopefully dreaming about giving mommy and daddy a great nights sleep. Look how little you are, I layed my hand next to you so others can see just how "newborn" little you are.One day when your older and your curious as to why I take so many photos of you and Triston, well, it's simple.. I have only one photo of me as a toddler....and then it picks back up when I'm 5. I wish I had more but my parents didn't have the money to document my early years of life...and who am I kidding, technology NOW is amazing.

Triston and daddy are playing Rockband and I've been cooking eggplant parm for dinner, very low-key day. It's MLK today and tomorrow, these United States of America gets a new President. You have an appointment tomorrow with Dr. Hauben, you get shots...I'm concerned about the shots ordeal because they give it into your legs and you only have one leg available as your left leg is in a full leg cast. I know Dr. Hauben will make it work, he adores you. Funny thing to mention is that tomorrow will mark your THIRD, yes I said 3rd visit with him in under a week.....I know, I know, I worry about you G....he told me to relax....easier said then done.

Now that she is more on a schedule...and I'm finally getting the hang on this baby thing, I plan on blogging more often...I can't wait for you to read this later on in life...because it will only confirm it all my love that I love you so much and daddy and I fought for you to be here and will never get out of the ring. Fight on girl, you deserve it.

I love you G.

2 weeks baby girl!

Oh Gillian, it's been over 2 weeks since I met you, my sweet little girl. I can't beleive for 17 weeks, while pregnant with you, I refered to you as a "him or a he". I was certain that I was having another boy and knew in my head that there is no way I could have a little girl because I was just so use to have a son. I was surprised when the U/S tech said, it's a girl. I'll never forget the happy tears I shed as I told your daddy that he will be walking his daughter down the isle in years to come. When you are older, I will tell you all about the pregnancy, the tears shed between your father and I, the stress we carried and the happiness when we finally met you my sweet baby girl.

Your daddy is over the moon with you (as we all our). There is just something to be said when a father holds his little girl. Your his, period, daddy's little girl.

Yesterday we took you to your first meeting at the Hall. I was so happy to show you off as many knew the hard road we took in order to get you here. You made everyone smile, people flocked to you to see who our little miracle was, who she was all about. I was so proud!

Everyday I wake up and I smile, I have my boy, I have my girl. Though I know the road ahead of us could be rough, just know that as my daughter, I will take care of you and will never let you down.

I love Gillian!

Your mommy